im just not that into you.. i dont think.

Okay, so i get that love is probably suppose to be compicated and all that, but its bullshit.



baby did a bad bad thingg..

i wont say what in case a particular someone by some crazy chance see's this.

but u get the gist of it.



things were going good, i actually missed him, the he had to go and fuck up again didn't he.

had to be rude, had to refuse to meet my dad, had to do the same old shit again.

then there was silence. and it not so much scares me, but worries me, i don't want to loose him, but im not sure if i want to stay with him, what am i going to?



"i don't wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence, the quiet scares me cos it screams the truth".



then theres the other one, who is still so lovely, and our very complicated relationship has only gotten better. but hes got me and another girl to think about, which doesn't bother me at all cos of course i have guy number 1 to think about.

okay i sound like a bit of a skank, but for those of you who know me, you know im not, but things are very complicated at the moment and i have no idea what to do.



does it ever feel like things are just going around and around in a circle?

i know bad metaphor but whatever. its just like im doing the same thing everyday,

and nothing is coming from it.



im missing sydney alot at this current time. ive got alot of time to think about everyone seeing as im on holidays, and there is absoulutely nothing to do during the day. nothing exciting anyways.



"life is like a slide show and all the places i got, and all the things that i know, through all the highs and lows. cause life is like a slide show, and all the things that i've seen and all the things that i dream, you can't take away from me, cause life is like a slide show".



Imagine if you could have your whole life put infront of you. everything you have been through, everything you have seen, everything you have done, everyone you have done, every memory you have ever enjoyed and hated and all the things we have coming for us, waiting. would it really change who we are knowing what we have in store for us?



maybe it would be a good thing, like it would ensure us that in the end everything will be okay, that everything does happen for a reason, that we aren't alive for nothing, that all the sadness and confusion that come with life all makes sense in the end. of course its meant to, but why can't we know our path before we go through it?



cigarettes. i need to quit them, its extremely hard.

extremelyy.

and i need to exercise more.



i love lyrics. iv'e been listening to msic alot lately, i don't think i could actually live without music.

its like a place to go when u feel like crap, or your just really bored, or in a really happy crazy mood, any mood, music can uplift you. and bring back memories, good and bad, but in the end, you always feel better, i think thats why singers are singers.



smiles all around.

the hangover tomorrow. yewwww.